thought i knew any cell of my dna. good instincts, free thinking and with a whole lot of antennas. then, on day zero, we and i took another turn. little tickling on third eye. scratching, pushing, a constant sensation. hands burning, pressure on chest, ears, nose. a crawling and teasing between the shoulder blades. no, i’m not scared. i trust you. keep on going when i fall. and we fall. into nothingness. energy rushing through our limbs. pulsing, vibrating like an earthquake. sleepless nights. don’t make any sound ‘out there’, it hurts. with every cracking, an electric shock showers our skin. countless sensations conquering the physical world. ajna, sahasrara opened wide. no, i’m not scared. otherwise i’d go insane. or explode right away. instead: i trust you. keep on going when i’m awake. what else there is? all our lives searching. we knew, this was not it. it just wasn’t. more afraid of a life in a box than of vanishing. now we get to know ourselves from a totally different point of view. now something gave us the magic paint to paint reality like a peace of art. and manifest. a new awareness like somebody has turned on the light. a fusion of mind, soul, body. a deep inner peace, freedom, love. we lose ourselves in our own infinite room. where the bodies, the universe, mother earth are all one. we listen to our our own infinite sound. a higher frequenzy which seems powerful enough to create a milky way. excitement like being in love. not only trusting. knowing. and every day comes with another gift. we have begun a journey. and we’ll be never coming back.
If my sis Lena would have to describe her currend feeling, she´d say she´s being rocked by a rhythm, bubbles coming and summing up; building a volcano up to an explotion; letting brains`n´belly spinning funnily; producing some energy that makes her running up an airy stairway to a place that consists of a 100% belief which is home, safety and freedom to us all. Isn´t she fucking silly?